Living the Now (and Learning Patience)

I am a "here-and-now" kind of girl. If I wish for, want or desire something, I HAVE to have it, RIGHT HERE and RIGHT NOW. I know. It's bad. It's wrong. And I'm acting like a spoiled child. To be honest, I'm a spoiled child. I am an only daughter of a divorced working mother who has done all she could to raise a child whilst she hasn't have that much money and was struggling everyday. So every time she could, she spoiled me. And it's in my character, I'm an impulsive person so yay, but no, patience isn't my thing.
I hate to wait. No I execrate it. Restaurant, shops, people, train, you name it, I hate it.
In fact, I'm so impatient that I somehow I forget to enjoy the present moment. Or I'm too anxious about my future or brooding over my past but that's another story. I've realised that this was really a burden, a weight on my shoulder I really, really, want to get rid of. Those last three months, I've set myself the goal to "be more present", "to be more mindful" and all that jazz. But I've miserably failed.
First because this goal is too vague so it's not measurable and second, because it's too large. Be more present. Yay. Sure. So today I've decided to focus on particular point, I'm gonna set myself moments during the day when I'll try to be more mindful. There will be
- The meals, because I really, really want to kick into Intuitive Eating and mindful eating is the first step.
- My stretching time because lately I've been checking Snapchat -_-'
- During the Legs Up the Wall I do before I go to sleep (I've been mostly reading during this one and I think it's okay but recently I've caught myself checking my phone too often…)
- At random time of the day (gonna set an alarm in my phone) when I'm just gonna sit back, shut off everything and appreciate my surroundings (and hoping I'm neither caught in traffic jam nor crammed in public transport at that moment!)
And every time I'll fail (because I will let's be honest) I will try again. Those moments of mindfulness will imply Deep Belly Breathing, because it's awesome.

And I hope this will help me on my way to cure my impatience!

Maylee <3